Feelings, Part 2
Thought for your day #32, Wed 9/27/00.
(Part 1 is here)
News this week:
 | Friend #1's fiancé returned to her husband |
| Friend #2's 4th epidural spinal surgery didn't remove his debilitating pain |
| Friend #3's cousin committed suicide |
| Friend #4's place of employment for 23 years closed its doors without notice |
| Friend #5's son lost an arm in a car accident; no sign of coming out of the coma |
| Friend #6's head got shaved, rather than let it fall out when the chemotherapy starts |
I am so tired.
I am so sad.
It would be so easy to feel so depressed.
From Peter Gabriel's "In Your Eyes":
Love...I get so lost sometimes
Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off in my car
But whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are...
Love....I don't like to see so much pain
So much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive
These are the times that challenge us. And yes, there are a million feelings, most of them not-so-nice.
It's all easy when it's easy, yes?......With no problems, plenty of money, health is fine, it's easy to think our lives are love, peace, joy and bliss.
Then the real world comes knocking....."Hello!"
And sometimes it all seems so hopeless.....pointless.....I mean, in a world of so much pain, why bother? What good, really, does this silly little website do? Or any of our other activities......Why, indeed, bother? Why even get out of bed? Why even go on?
The best answer I can give is The Starfish Story. I heard this first on The Dr. Laura Schlessinger radio show.
Two people are walking along the beach. The beach is covered with literally thousands of starfish. And when the starfish stay in the hot sun for too long, they die. And one of the people is reaching down and throwing starfish back into the ocean. The other says, "Why bother? There are thousands of starfish. They're all going to die. What you are doing doesn't matter." The first, tossing yet another starfish to safety, says, "It mattered to THAT one."
No, I cannot solve everyone's problems. Neither can you. And all too often it seems that whatever we might do is all too little.
But this email also came in this week:
Hi webmaster and members of the Church of YHWH. I delightfully discovered you while researching .com names for my own website which is still under construction. I agree with everything in your website....I just wish to bless you and your integrity and am so very thankful for souls like yours who are clearly doing the work for the benefit of all. It warms my heart to know you are there and I am grateful for what you are creating. Please feel free to contact me any time if you wish and know that you are truly blessed. With beams of Love, Light & Laughter signed....
So, we mattered to that one. And to this one too:
Every single one of you can and does help. With your prayers, with your recommendations to friends, with your donations (which only go toward promotion), with your interesting emails.Dear brother,
I extend my warmest greetings from the Philippines .
I am brother .....,37 years of age, Filipino. I graduated from ....... in .........City in 1991. Right after my graduation I started a pioneering work here in ...... City under the sponsorship of ........ Church. Allow me to relate my past. It was in 1977 I opened the Bible and encountered "YAHWEH" in it. From that time I never forget God's name. I have used it since last 1977. I introduced His name to .... Church and pray to Heavenly father (YHWH).
I tried to put "www.churchofyahweh.org" in the internet. Halleluiah! At last I found a church which bears God's name. Can you give me Bibles which use the name of our Creator? I love His wonderful name! How can I become a member of this church? What must I do in order to be a member of "Church of Yahweh"? Can you share the message of salvation taught by Church of Yahweh? Please send some books to me. Here in the Philippines most churches do not know the name of God. Just use God in the name of Jesus Christ. That's all. They never mention the name of a holy God.
May YHWH richly bless you all.
And not just in this ministry, but in all the other places we are able to touch people......Yes, the sun is baking......Yes, we are in pain.....Yes, the tide is moving out......
But we cannot give up. We must not.
What we do does matter....to that one.
Please, really, if you are reading this, could you just send me an email? Short and sweet is fine, it need not be long...Just a word of encouragement at this time will, indeed, matter to this one.
And thank you. I feel better.
