Transcendent Experiences
The second life-transforming revelation Dan and Yhwh had for me in the 90s Dan had actually mentioned back in the 70s at one of our first meetings. "One of the few mantras higher than 'Ani Yhwh' is 'Ani Ain,' but we don't push it here. It is too much for people, and they don't get anything out of it."
It is my testimony that he was right. I worked with The Name for nearly 20 years until I began to be able to comprehend this phenomenal system.
And that's a point that bears mentioning. Everything I have printed here in TCOY is the result of intensely personal experiences and journeys in Yhwh's Kingdom. You can read it in any order. And flit about like a butterfly, "Oh, isn't that nice." And click the browser to the next site-of-the-day to see what else is happening.
But you may be doing yourself a disservice. We have become a world of browsers and channel surfers. We skim. We have an endless parade of surface-level conversations. It is profoundly symbolic that we are obsessed with fashion, and clothes, and cosmetics, and hair. Always on the surface, never coming anywhere near anything that actually matters.
It's like the old saying, "We don't know who discovered water, but we're pretty sure it wasn't a fish." And if you don't know what that means, perhaps it is an indication you would serve yourself well to s-l-o-w d-o-w-n.
Ani Ain
"Ani" is Hebrew for "I".
"Ain" is Hebrew for "Not."
"Ani Ain" is, literally, "I am the Not."
You see, there's you, and there's everything else.
You, and everything you are not.
As long as you identify with the "I", you are limiting your consciousness to the small, space-time-trapped ego.
The "Not" is everything beyond you. It represents the No-Thing-Ness of Infinity. Beyond attributes. The Vast Face of Yhwh, also known as the Arikh Anafin.
"Ani Ain" then represents the totality, everything that is you, plus everything that is not you.In the fall we become "I-Not"...as in "I not clothed, I not rich, I not happy."
In the redemption we become "Not-I"...as in "Not my will, but Thy will be done." As in "I (the ego) and The Father (the Not) are One (the Totality)."
As in the Whole Universe.
The 3 letters are sufficient to spell both words.
They relate to The Fool (the Totality), The Hermit (the I), and Death (the Not) in the Tarot.
The Fool = 0, The Hermit = 9, and Death = 13.
0 + 9 + 13 = 22. The # of Hebrew letters. The Totality. Again, and always, and only...the Totality.
God praying through me..."Ani Yod-Heh-Vav-Heh...I Am God."
I've tried to put all of this together in a visual meditation. It's nearly a megabyte, so I've put it in its own file in case it's too large for your browser.
And I can't explain it any better than that. If it doesn't make sense to you then you can ignore it, or dig in.
It's up to you.
It always is.
